Megan 21 ΔΩP-ALUMNA
2. Get away from your room. Remember that it is not a prison cell and there is a world outside of it. Go to the place you feel most at home.
3. Count to ten. Remember that it will be okay. This is just a moment in time, and every moment passes eventually.
4. Breathe. Keep breathing, steady and slow, until you don’t feel like each breath holds a world of its own. Breathe until the air around you feels like nothing more than just air.
5. Pick up the phone, and call the person who you feel most comfortable with. You don’t have to tell them that you’re shaking, or that your bones are so heavy that you wish you could just break them already, but you can if you want. Otherwise, let them distract you until you don’t shiver at the thought of facing the world again. If you have no one to call, come to me. I will love you and remind you that I do not want the world if it doesn’t have you in it.
6. Breathe. Again. And again.
7. Calm down. Pick up a pen and some paper; write, draw, doodle, sketch, paint. Do whatever it is that helps you keep your thoughts at bay. Do whatever it is that makes you feel free, even if it’s only for that moment.
8. Breathe. Keep breathing. Take a deep breath.
9. Go back to your room, breathe again, throw away the pills, the blades, the rope. Throw it away. Throw away each bad thought you have tied to these things.
10. Let yourself be sad. Let yourself cry, or scream, or curl up in a ball and pull the blankets over your head.
11. Pull yourself together, end your sadness. Remember that one day you will be able to get away from the town you have locked yourself in for your whole life so far. Remember that there are corners of the world you have yet to explore.
12. Hold on. If you need to, cry some more, scream some more, let yourself feel sad, it’s okay to feel sad. But let yourself feel happy, too. Hold on for the times you feel happy. Hold on for the good days.
13. Breathe. Don’t you dare give up. Hold on. Always, always hold on.